( There's only the smallest twitch in his hand that warns for the reaction that follows. Suddenly, he's reaching over the table, sitting up on his knees, bracing himself with one hand while the other one snatches at Mikazuki's. In the process, there's a clatter on the table, his cup spills over and he ignores it.
Right now, his eyes are focused on Mikazuki. Where there is usually a distantness and where there had been a coldness, his eyes meet Mikazuki's directly. Pale goldseems brighter and more vivid and there's something burning there-- that light he usually keeps guarded and covered, that flame that might burn him. As for his grip, it's firm and strong, the type of hold that won't let go easily. The only distance between them right now is the little that is literally, physically between them. )
Stop that.
( They're close. Closer than he wants to admit, closer than he really likes to be because it betrays a spirit under all of his masks. The spirit that wants to be close, that actually cares. A sensitive Tsurumaru Kuninaga that has been hurt enough and wants to be better if he won't be let to rest. )
Say what you want already.
( This long suspense, it's killing his heart slowly. )
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Right now, his eyes are focused on Mikazuki. Where there is usually a distantness and where there had been a coldness, his eyes meet Mikazuki's directly. Pale goldseems brighter and more vivid and there's something burning there-- that light he usually keeps guarded and covered, that flame that might burn him. As for his grip, it's firm and strong, the type of hold that won't let go easily. The only distance between them right now is the little that is literally, physically between them. )
Stop that.
( They're close. Closer than he wants to admit, closer than he really likes to be because it betrays a spirit under all of his masks. The spirit that wants to be close, that actually cares. A sensitive Tsurumaru Kuninaga that has been hurt enough and wants to be better if he won't be let to rest. )
Say what you want already.
( This long suspense, it's killing his heart slowly. )